I required redemption at 04:54 p.m.. I required redemption at 06:23 p.m..
Kristel, Juliet and Musfirah came today. should have seen what we did besides PPL. will not give it away yet. haiz. so angry with those people who drag Dee and Felicia into the whole argument for no reason. it's definitely not their fault. and we've got hypocrticial people in 2/7 ooh! how nice! *says sardonically* like we don't have enough bad qualities.
and on Thursday I was having this discussion with yunlin whether 2/7 or 2/10 is worse. unexpectedly, we both think the other's class is worse. my grudges with certain members still hold. and yunlin's grudges with some 2/7 members still hold. haiz.
haiz. I hate sympathy. let me rub it in, that I can't stand it. I prefer to be viewed upon as an equal. I don't care for sympathy. so, you think I am pepectually alone when in class? true, I am. but you see, I don't care. I made my choices. I have my own set of morals and my own lines.
as I mentioned in PFC this week, I am rather gullible at times. and one who holds my trust is in the power of betraying me most. people who insult my God or my family simply face the consequences. but I steadfastly believe I made the right choice. and I keep it. and maintain it. I have my purpose. oh true, I lose a few "friends" who don't in the least respect me, but I know my real friends.
and Saili is still a friend, I guess. close friend in upper pri. then now spaced apart by distances and sociality. and might never meet again or talk to again in life. but at heart still a friend. oh time to shush about this. I required redemption at 05:34 p.m.. I required redemption at 08:34 p.m..
let's see. oh the amazing fact that I knew not even the title of the songs there has effectively reminded me that I am still not going to church. *says irksomely*. I think the pastor's really nice, but I can't help thinking that she would do wonderfully well as a politician. I mean her way of speaking. okay, shut out the thought.
pity. because of my lateness. I failed to witness Char's speec. nvm. next time I see Deborah, I'll make it a point to ask her. you know. I was feeling a bit out of place, because majority of the people there were sec 2 geps, closely followed by the sec 3s. then the teachers. no surprise, eh? so. let me call it a blessing, I chanced to know Deborah and Annabel. and can recognise Charissa Lu if nothing else.
there are naturally a few things I don't feel like talking about. caused by the pastor's words. I repeat. she would make a fantastic politician, maybe even better than PAP. thankfully, I think only one or two people realised. shush.
*says a bit upsetly* pity. I feel out of place in class too. maybe CCA is the only time I feel I fit in. perhaps. leave it there. hanging.
am I glad I told few of this blog. or half the things I mentioned wouldn't even exist. I required redemption at 06:03 p.m..
>>Wednesday
By wednesday, we had met 3 new teachers. Mr. Colman Chua the teacher who snickers, Mr. Redmund Law the teacher who is way too tall and Ms Kong the new Chinese teacher. Mr. Chua loves to snicker all the time. and he loves informing us that nursery rhymes should be rated RA. should I say I'm sardonically amused? chromatpgraphy is so fun! *says excitedly*
>>Thursday - Cyber day of the week
I've been having a bad week and the whole prospect of Cyber kind of brightened it up. just a little. maybe. Geog test was so difficult to finish in time. and if your teacher is Ms. Wong, she slipped a lot!
today, we learnt a new software called something I've forgotten. anyone care to remind me? fine, so anyway. very few people were really paying attention. firstly, only about 5-7 computers had the software. so they had to install for 2 more comps. then we "plagued" the comps. *grins widely*
somehow, Lingxi's group managed to "discover" a new disease - purple skin disease. then it was Sharan, Yvonne, Stacy and I working on another comp. I think among four of us, Stacy and Sharan were the ones really paying attention. my mind was wandering too much. (note: ms. Foo was around, so I had to delay writing of letter and reading of book.) anyway, it was rather fun. in a way, besides looking like a grayscale world of matrix, from my perspective. so Charissa, don't kill me! I didn't watch! I didn't watch!
accomplishment: Zijia and I finally tracked down K Lui and got our books. you know what I have to say that I can't put here. I required redemption at 07:46 p.m..
Minty thought that a phrase of her life was over, only to discover that it was still existing to date. She could not believe the reality of it all, and perhaps she still can't. she thought that the time when people turned on her was over, only to face it once again today.
maybe that was why she delibrately avoided a lot of her friends today. maybe. and only approaching those whom she trusted more. yes. that was it. and maybe it's the issue of religion. she feels that she is currently filled with spite and cannot settle on anything, as her mind still dwells on the events on the day.
she can't find comfort in anything. not even books. which speaks volumes. she is still having "ira. ignus. carnicifina" flowing through her mind like the javascript below. that is her anger. and she can't speak it out. and even if she felt she could, she does not want to bother her friends with the minute issues of her life, as they do not bother her with theirs.
therefore, she will probably do plenty of ranting today. as she is currently very angered by a lot of people and feels thoroughly ready to scream at them, but that would be backsliding. at the end of June, she vowed to avoid using explitives, and so far she has managed. No one is going to make her turn back on her words.
thankfully for her, although her classmates are driving her up the wall, and those few she trusts should not be bothered, she still has Cybernet, although she cares not to bother her friends. so she put everything rather mildly. I required redemption at 08:09 p.m..
so to get down to business. yesterday we had elections which was pretty well, inaccurate. we know that whether we like it or not. the truth is that, it was so obvious that people were persuaded/bribed to vote for others. anyway, let's start from my blunder.
without realising, I nominated Cheryl for chair, and it was only when Janaki said, "it's so sad when two people run for the position." when I realised. sorry, Cheryl. I'm still a little startled. I can't believe Alcina got secretary. I mean, I thought Yee Ying would get the role. but some people were persuaded to vote for her, I guess. a whole lot of people who don't really know her voted for her. okay, I'll shush. Marj dear, should have voted for Yee Ying! it was so close, you know? nvm, next time Marj, you could help vote for Yee Ying for 2005 commitee. or am I asking for too much to hope that... *typing trails off*
oh, thanx for voting for me, people. *smiles sweetly* thanks. I am so pleased that Cher got upper sec. co-od. hehz. (referring to someone else) I won't blame you for not voting then. I mean, it was a tough decision, wasn't it? and I guess it was right not to vote when in your position. may I assume you did not vote some other times as well? "I have to remain discreet" *recites in mind*
oh my. Lorraine and Daffy running was so difficult to decide who to vote for. *knocks head* I couldn't decide, and I didn't feel too nice to not vote. so just happened that there is Lingxi *smile sweetly*. so we did half-vote for each.
mascot: phoenixes are nice. really. but. I happen to like wolves and foxes a lot. but they wouldn't do well, would they? *tries to convince oneself* so yes, will vote for phoenix.
obliterate.
I feel the urge to do a new site, and this is thanks to Cheryl! her influence. with setting up webbies. *smiles sweetly* *thinks she's overusing the phrase*
anyone kind enough to want to set up a combined webby with me? I required redemption at 03:33 p.m..
I was in school when I realised I didn't wear my name-tag. so I had to borrow from this kind girl in my class. and didn't know she was breaking a school rule. one of the prefects in my class came up to me on the way to last block and issued me a booking. and someone told her, because we sit at different tables and the informer was sitting next to me in one of the eariler classes. she had absolutely no way of knowing I was wearing someone else's name-tag.
and now I feelso guilty. because I got her booked for no good reason. and the other prefect doesn't seem really keen on helping her get out of booking. and I didn't know half the school rules prefect 1 told me today. *rolls eyes* and what she said isn't even in the school policy. I can more or less rememeber the whole thing, you know. and I just checked.
prefects! I required redemption at 05:07 p.m..
over the last month, I gloated outrageously at obtaining 9 proper books in one day. note: proper. I also did a summary on Order of the Phoenix which I think I'll re-do, because I feel like it. Highlight the text.
Harry Potter was supposedly possessed by Voldemort (VOldie). and the victim was Sirius Black. Harry really oughts to listen to Hermions, you know. It's all his fault Sirius died. He got killed by cousin, Bellatrix Lestrange. as Amalina mentioned, she sounds like some cereal. say, Trixie.
and Bellatrix Lestrange is a fool who has no family loyalty, whatsoever. She happily kills her cousin, injures her niece (Tonks) and has more loyalty to Voldie than to her husband Rudolphlus or something.
oh, the ending is really nice. I like the way Umbridge ended up. what with my twisted sense of humour. and Draco and co. had their attack backfired. On Mugglenet there's some orbituary for Sirius. it's a link. hunt around yourself.
Sunday, July 13, 2003
gate done. can't help thinking about the current events. Dee has really been hurt by all those comments. why can't they keep quiet and forget it?
Saturday, July 12, 2003
currently testing my password gate.
Saturday, July 12, 2003
the more I brood, the more angered I am. am I lamenting too much? don't I have all the reason in the world to lament? oh, I refused to give in. I am not going to forgive any half-wits. and over a week has passed. old grudges die hard.
Friday, July 11, 2003
Tan Hui Xing made a blunder! and I thought I did it. Tan Hui Xing arh... cause me so much problem. now tsk. can't be undone. hmph. so can only rush now. and fascinatingly. notice the irony. Hui Xing. change temp. and linked me wrong. tsk. tsk. and last entry I still thought only about 10 people know.
Friday, July 11, 2003
oh yes. yunlin decided not to go to Char's and Chin Yee's dedication service. and Lorraine had no time. *says sadly*. I got there early, and yet late. a bit difficult to explain. nvm. forget it.
Thursday, July 10, 2003
>>Saturday
Shatec. let's say, they hope you go there with the prospect of gorging yourself. I couldn't stand the chicken! what a large piece. how people like Jo and Kristel finish their food is an enigma. we jaywalked! About 12 of us! and as Xian Hui put it, people who saw us jaywalking would be shocked to see what seems like a whole lot of prefects jaywalking.
Friday, July 4, 2003
shaken. and I know it. will be better phrased in third person.
Friday, July 4, 2003
I am practically seething and this is all someone's fault. time and again, I relent and forgive you. so you think I'll forgive you again don't you. well that's a dream. a dream that was once true, and now a memory. *smiles sweetly*. and you ought to know it's a dream, alright, dear? it was the last straw today. after you made so many consequetive mistakes you should never have the mistake. you were foolish to deny the chance to be forgiven. and I have all the right to make this statement. and I THOUGHT you were my friend. and I thought you were sensitive to my feelings when you're just so indoscelent. (should be the right word) but you were too much today. insult me, I forgive. insult my family or my God, then forget it. as you did today. and people who agreed for you won't be in a much better position. tell the class, it can be their amusement. but I have friends who will stand by me and know to be sensitive. so begone.
Wednesday, July 2, 2003
I am so peeved with those prefects and their spies. just they wait. I'm feeling so resentful, that I almost feel guilty. Wait, I am guilty.
Tuesday, July 1, 2003
it's getting a bit hard to suppress my rage at the fact that the entries of the last month have totally vanished. I'm sure I overwrote them yesterday, meaning I overwrote my archives when they had different names. I'll just do a summary...
I'm currently reading Guardians of the West, which is ridiculously funny. I mean especially Geran's birth. Thanks for the tip-off Charissa. I skipped pages to read it.
on second thoughts, the next layout ios so bad, I'll either re-do it or something. so redemption gets to stay for another 1 month or maybe half.
I required redemption at 09:38 a.m..
Monday, June 30, 2003
I think I blundered.
I required redemption at 01:29 p.m..
Monday, June 30, 2003
It's gone nuts! fine. next Cyber session, will have to persuade Charissa to fix it for me, or else. I give up with pitas. and will resort to diary-x.
I required redemption at 12:27 p.m..
Monday, June 30, 2003
how sweet. now I can't archive properly. the entries of the past month have either vanished or been obliterated.
I required redemption at 12:26 p.m..
Monday, June 30, 2003
I totally loathe this layout. it is atrocious! I think it's terrible. I was considering "Algaria", then figured I have nothing to put on it, besides the map. so I have to make do with "Deep". someone be nice and suggest something nice that I could work on. all I can think of now is "burn. then freeze." and it isn't remotely interesting.
I required redemption at 12:22 p.m..
