Cyber people! 8th May, Thurs, urgent meeting for everyone at Pavillion. 7.20am sharp! must remind me.

>>Saturday

2.4km. me was recorder for Nutti and I missed her once or twice. I know! I know! I'm just a bit blur, k? but I still got all the timings right. yes, I'm lucky. than. saw Kenneth Lui, coming to sch, dressed like a student, as usual. Me hated 2.4! I barely passed. Yilin kind of encouraged me to run for 1/2 round. if not, I would fail! trod abt Kenneth Lui's classroom and it ended up muddy. Hui Xing, Zijia and I wrote on Tianni and Shengnan's w/s. that Tianni! pon Maths again. Zijia wanted to blame her, so I joined in. excerpt from one of the w/s: "Hi! I'm Kenneth Lui and I love the Chan guy!" by Hui Xing.

>>Monday

Music: 2/7 danced round the CO room. Felt like an Israelite. But hey! their history is way cool! Then dance... Ruby gave us a talk on SARS and taxi drivers. I loved it. No sarcasm but apparently some people didn't. It was good! Then when the oral people left, she tried to teach us a bit of Jazz. nice but I didn't get it. 

>>Tuesday

During Lit, Ms. Chow got our attention with a story about her past. Oooooh! Now I know I can get army gear from beach road! My father doesn't have it coz he was in the navy. Then she talked about bringing us to Portsdown Road! For ice-cream! She rocks! Then when she asked us whether there are any Roman Catholics in class, I nearly raised my hand. Oh my. Where are my brains? I think someone raised her hand. Don't' know who, though... then pft. passed everything! yes! don't know why... but saw Char's and Noelle's class like so many times.

Kept seeing Daffy today. coincidental! she's going to lend me dreamweaver in about 2 weeks time? because she has pft on Thurs and Vesak day is next week. so sad. we had the same recess almost everyday in the old timetable, but now it's different everyday except Odd Tues. That Sharan... always goes around with that smiling face that kind of gets on my nerves. but it's funny. no wonder she says she's "nice and irritating". Nutti says that K Lui looks like a computer technician. bwahahah! my pencil's gone again! crazy pencil! but I think it's with Nutti this time. last time it was with Zijia. I think my pencil hates me. btw, today, my left knee suddenly started bleeding like crazy, k... so pathetic. and the plasters fell off within 3 mins. I love ppl. was that sarcastic, or was that not?

I chose to flee from my past at 11:14 p.m..

Friday, May 2, 2003

I'm fed up with huang lao shi. she always goes about with her xie2 shen1 as Xian Hui said, whoever gets her for oral is going to marked down. nobody else I know has her pronounciation disorder. alright, so I am turning a little nasty.

She has been just failing me lately. And so many people flunk HCL sp no.3 because of her unique accent. not that anyone else I knows wants it. She thinks she's so great, must edit everything people say. Even Guo Tong's answer was already so good and she had to de-prove it. I said "huang2 lao3 shi1 xuan3 cuo4 hang2 ye4 le4." that is so true. She should have been a journalist or editor. but no! her parents must have said that isn't reliable and made her be a teacher. sounds like red sky in the morning.

oh yes... red sky in the morning, student's warning... of the coming of a teacher who ain't the least bit good. we had "debate" today. so fun. alright... pathetic is closer. "di4 yi1 zhu3..." group by group! so exasperated. and she is giving us spelling on Thurs. Now we have 4 tests in a week. Huang lao shi, you rock!

Oral was so scary. Juliet, Musfirah, Xian Hui, Miao Ling and I were 1/2hr early. before that we were all having lunch with Elisa and Kristel. Juliet and Musfirah got wacked before they got to leave the canteen. I was spared. then we were loitering the corridors, talk about de-stressing. we came to the fascination question of How to solve the ageing population problem? so Juliet started telling Musfirah about huang lao shi darlin'. Then I was like "refer to Michelle Wong's model answer."

I got over orals very quickly. It was so scary. What is that rocking thingy called? Anyway, Xian Hui, Miao Ling and I were doing Maths homework and talking after orals. Then, we started talking about prefects teachers which happens to include huang lao shi. Xian Hui pointed out that she hasn't learnt anything and I totally agree. Then Ms. Kum came along and asked us why we were still around. She said Miao Ling shouldn't distract us from doing our homework. Told her to go and talk to the plants so that they'll grow flowers. They happen to be non-flowering. Then along came Ms. Tan. She ate candy in thew pavillion and Miao Ling said "breaking sch rules!" Ms. Tan said the rocking thing is called that rocking thingy.

that Eddy got booked by shi wei for loose belt. so she borrowed mine and went to show the prefect she doesn't wear a loose belt. I was laughing all the time, while waiting for her in the pavillion. a teacher saw us changing belts later. I love h/w!

I chose to flee from my past at 07:08 p.m..

Thursday, May 1, 2003

I chose to flee from my past at 10:47 p.m..

Tuesday, April 29, 2003

yay! got over the speech and drama thing today. I got 3:15 mins but it felt more like <45 secs. speech was not too bad. lolz. I spent lunch with Cher, Didi, Sandra and Fifi, that's what they call her. I keep forgetting her real name. That Cher and Fifi were talking about ghosts and Fifi told this story about a satay man seeing a white ghost one night. Then the satay man and his wife fell sick.

Cher said she thought the ghost would say something like, "I'm the satay goddess." so funny. Then before that, Cher was like "they stopped it already?" Cher is like so kind and nice to everyone and although she uses some words that aren't very polite, I bet she doesn't mean it. Even though she now says she doesn't care about the people who hurt her, she'll care again. very soon. she's just that nice. Ooh... we started Chem today. Our teacher's name is Ms. Huang Huan Xin. As her name, she's so happy. When we greeted her, she frowned slightly and said "your know my name?" then she wrote "Huang HX"on the board. Liyana said "Hui Xing!" and started laughing and I was also on the verge of bursting from laughter. Ms. Huang didn't know there is a Hui Xing in out class. During History, Juliet and Denise had to leave early. Then during class, Musfirah read out Juliet's answer and Ms. Ding was like "very good answer."

Then when I told Juliet during recess, she cried out something like "Kristel and Musfirah saboed me!" Then lit. E4-15. The window was wide open and Nurul and I went to peer out. Bwahahaha... can't fall out. There's this bit of space for people to walk on. Vani leaned out of the window! Then during EL, Ms. Tan got to the part about the vandalisers escaping. I started telling Nurul abt the vandals jumping off the spiral from 4th floor to basement. then told her abt how the vandals would jump out of the window in E4-15.

I chose to flee from my past at 06:52 p.m..

Monday, April 28, 2003

.::Saturday::.

At Maths, Zijia and I were betting on Shengnan's and Tianni's arrivals. Shengnan was late by a few minutes, as usual, and Tianni didn't turn up. Zijia, Shengnan and I were playing and bouncing with Hui Xing's pink ball. So fun... it escaped a few times. I'm surprised that the instructor didn't notice. Later Shengnan left, and things began to get boring... until. Zijia started writing on Tianni's w/s and I couldn't help but join in. Hui Xing drew "fan art" of Kenneth Lui. hehez... so fun. Tragically, the instructor, took my pencil!

.::Today::.

Comp studs. was boring, for once. because the teacher didn't teach us much. Everyone was reading other people's blogs. Then during History, we had so much fun. Ms. Ding called for five pens and our group had 7. hehez... she called for a mirror but apparently our class isn't that vain. azimah could present a brush within a second when she called for one. lolz. she asked for five waterbottles and we already had 4 on the table. Juliet took hers out and when we were awarded with the question, she said "my waterbottle saved the day."

then when she asked for 3 story books... it was so funny... Elisa already had a book on the table. I whipped out Antrax and Xian Hui pulled out that pink colour HCL book we have to read. we won. because we have the book fanatics at our table. I wouldn't even have Antrax with me if not for Elisa. we were in lead at the middle, then somehow in the end, we were 3rd. just because we don't have pink or brown pencil cases at the table.

During dance, we had to choose a song for our exam. They played a lot of songs. When they played Jenny From the Block by J. Lo, Elisa shrieked "sounds like from the gates of hell!" or at least it sounded like Elisa. They more or less agreed on Upside Down by A* Teens. Not too bad. But there was something by the Beatles, I think, that wasn't too bad. Sounded nice actually. Then, when Ms. Heather was browsing through my CD, she stopped for a while at My Love and I'm With You, so that some people were singing.

I chose to flee from my past at 05:04 p.m..

Friday, April 25, 2003

it hurts. it cuts. those who stand between hurt a lot. it's sad. i know what they know. won't say. won't tell anyone. but it's sad to know they're trapped. they're trapped along that line and they can't get out. it's like watching someone suffer. only it's mental torture... it hurts.

it's like cutting your wrist with glazed string or penknife. it hurts more than a large gash can. it's that way. the line... it's the glazed wire. it sets people against their morals. it prevents them from telling the truth. what is right. what they know.

there's nothing anyone can do. i don't know if she knows i know she knows. it's a mental game. it's more difficult than a physical game. and again, it is because of me that she's trapped. and again, it's because of them as well. none can deny that. no one can challenge that. it's a trap, the line. one has to choose either side, lest they suffer from the sharp end. it's like that. i can't help her. and again, it isn't all my fault. it isn't theirs or theirs. it's impossible to describe. it's one that involves all. it's like this. she's trapped and no one can set her free.

not even her. there's nothing no one can do to release her. she's trapped and she only has herself and God to help her. i can't free her. and yet, it's because of me, a mere aquaintance, that she's trapped. and it's a feeling impossible to describe. i don't feel guilt. i think it's remorse. or maybe not. maybe it's just a sense that the world is about to be torn apart. it's a vision. it will be tragic...

i don't want her to be torn by the line. it's something no one can understand except her and her. for all i know. i've never known that line. but again, i'm different. i'm so different from them. i don't want her to be hurt. but what can i do...

I chose to flee from my past at 07:32 p.m..

Friday, April 25, 2003

I need a retreat. Why is the world suddenly so different. It's time to return to Lim Min. The one who never let people take her so unseriously. I need myself back. I need to be myself again. The person I want to be. I'm so transparent. I can't take this attack. Flee as the wind...

That was what I was thinking today. As I fled from my life. The life I so hate. I'm not me. I need to flee. And I can't. I want to flee. I'm not comic relief. I'm myself. I miss my old life. Even last year was better. This year my life is totally dominated.

I'm bound to my life. The one I dreadfully hate. I need the old one. I'm bound down by these people who control me. How can this be? I made a dreadful mistake yesterday. I shouldn't have done it. My life is shattered.

Would it offend anyone if I said my best friends now are Char, Cher and Yun Lin? If it does, sorry. They are. They are understanding to me, and everyone else is more interested in their own life. It's a kind of friendship I treasure. Maybe even more than the one I had/have with Saili, who's now so distant to me now.

I can't believe people can control me so easily. I'm in trouble. I'm lost. I need to recall my senses. From the West, long retreat is blown...

Last night Terese sent me an e-mail. I have this strange feeling she's caught in between. Between truth and loyalty. I don't know. We aren't too close. Today, the pledge had already begun but the people in the mini-amphi did not realise till it was half done. We ran 1.4km during PE. I got 9 mins, exactly. Must credit Vanessa. If not for her, I would have taken longer. She encouraged me to keep running.

My timings were like: 1:57, 4:12, 6:36, 9:00. Not bad. I wanted under 8 mins but if I have this kind of timing, it isn't too bad. I'll still get A. I'm still 13 and will be till end-of-August. Then we had badminton. I hate badminton, I love hockey. We have a new timetable already. to be implemented next week. First block comp. studs.

During HCL, my mind was wandering. I was physically there, but my mind was away in Cybernet. I don't know how. I was thinking about ThinkQuest and writing out those words in my book. Then, later Hui Xing took my book to have a look, and Terese was telling her how naughty I am to be writing in my book instead of paying attention. I said "I was bored." And Terese went "How can you be bored in this class?" hehez...

True... Huang lao shi is so entertaining. she told us about how she went to the airport to see a taiwanese proffessor arrive and saw some girls awaiting f4's arrival. funny. her pronounciation is funny and she thinks we're primary sch students. when you go to her class, you feel so free because she treats you like Pr.1. rejuvenated. quoting the debators.

Recess. I went to Cher. I don't want to listen to the advice of 2/7. I listen to my clique. Thanx. My Cyber clique, in other words my best friends. I told her that Char thought they were just trying to get out of trouble and asked her what she thought but she wasn't sure. Didn't even see Char today either. But I've chosen to forgive t.y. I think it's Cher who flamed her and v.l. But who knows?

Cyber yesterday. It was ultra entertaining. Sharan came. And when they were told to come up. I said "you forgot to hit me on the head, remember?" and she pretended to knock me. then after she put her bag down, she, Daffy and Lorraine came over. After I reminded her she was supposed to tell me abt her beloved Arsenal.

before she said anything, Lorraine said "Man U rocks." and that was countered by "Man U sucks, Arsenal rocks." went on for a few lines when Lorraine added "liverpool sucks" and I was looking at Daffy who said "no comments". lolz... then Lorraine and Sharan found some entertainment. They used tissue paper to wipe the dirty white, I mean blackish red, board in the shaw foundation lab. They had this much whiter patch and hehehez... I was comparing the colours, when someone turned off the lights and Janaki said that she liked it that way. lolz...

Then, Ocean and Lingxi had to present their webpages. that's when the fun started. Sharan and Lorraine started being "violent". keep on shaking the back of my chair. then Sharan kept saying Stacy did it and I said "she wouldn't do that." earlier on when I asked her for her blog address, she said she started it on Wednesday and she wasn't going to tell me. hmph...

Ocean's page was nice. very funny also. because her links were rotating themselves. Daphne announced that they were going to give prizes to the best 3. I blurted "can I take part?" hehez... then that pei jie asked "why's her name Ocean?" and I pointed out that no one asked her why her name is pei jie. it took a while before Lingxi came out. she was fixing her page. then Kar Wei asked a question. very funny one.

"How long did you take to do the flash?" hehez... I forgot Lingxi's answer. but a lot of people were laughing. then Daphne said she wanted one more person to present then everyone could go home. Then Lorraine and Sharan decided to sabotage Daffy and kept saying she did it really well.

Daffy didn't want to go and I said "Lorraine and Sharan did it really nicely" and they started protesting and giving excuses. Kar Wei tried to get Daffy to present. Then I pointed out there were sec 1s hiding at the back. She didn't choose to make them present. Yee Ying came along and Lorraine, Sharan and I were like trying to get her to present. Lorraine pretended to want to tell me Daffy's chem. marks.

Then I told Yee Ying about the sec 1s at the back and she tried to get them to present. I guess they heard me telling Sharan that it's fun to traumatize juniors. hehez... I told Daphne that my father was waiting for me... et cetra. and she told Chinyee club time was over and agreed to let me go. I went to take my bag from where Char and Bibianna were sitting. They started acting in a hilarious manner. Bibianna said "My mother's waiting for me. I can't just leave her there. She had a hard time bringing me up and I can't just abandon her there." and Char went "it'll be so unfilial." That was more or less it.

Sharan was saying it was unfair I got to go early. Later I waited with Cher for our parents to bring us home. And I was telling her about the updates. She said I am not as low as them and that since I'm so different from them, of course things like that would happen. I saw Bibianna leave and I think she headed for her mother's car. lolz.

Kar Wei isn't popular among my clique. A few people in Cyber have been none too pleased with her. Btw, readers, my mortals Eva and Janice have their works put up in the foyer. Should go and view... a lot of educational things there.

ArnoldBoeD font isn't showing. Have to put it on photoshop. Char didn't know that paintshop pro can enable people to make blinkies although she had the programme. Funny girl. We're going to do Much Ado about nothing for our ThinkQuest. We'e got miscellaneous. When I spoke to Yunlin today, she was murmuring something about oh... nvm. Well... time to get back to Antrax!~

I chose to flee from my past at 03:42 p.m..

Thursday, April 24, 2003

Life has been so miserable... apparently, someone flamed my old tag-board. no prizes for guessing who. Nutti and I know who, how and why. It's sad to know I've got that sort of people in my class...

I went to sch really early today. 6:45am. so I had plenty of time to talk to Nutti. and she said it's poison pen writing. I never heard of it till today. I'm innocent. Everyone says that. Then, when Vani came along and were talking to her about it. It was really very rude. Extremely insulting. And the idiots insulted Char and Elixir. So angry with them. I'm demanding full apology. So it's like, we told Kristel and Nivi overheard. Such a busybody. Wasn't even asked to come.

I already told Didi, Juliet, Cheryl and Ria last night. K... and Juliet couldn't believe it. Cheryl was like very nice... her reply was very kind. Didi was rather funny. She said she's going to talk to them personally and that I have something better to do than find ways to shorten their pinafores. very funny... Ria was in total rage. she gave them quite a few fascinating messages.

Basically, Juliet just found out why a lot of people don't like PB. Anyway... during Maths, Juliet and Kristel told Xian Hui, Elisa and Musfisrah. Then during comp studs, my suspiscions were confirmed because I heard those people having give-away convs. Vani, Nutti and Juliet tagged again. I don't feel like elaborating.

I told Marj and Eddy during my recess, when they were in Ms. Ding's class. It's like they were shocked and during Cyber, Eddy posted on my tag-board. insulting those people who insulted me. yay. that's a real friend. back to lunch time... During lunch, Nutti, Nivi, Vani, Kristel and I went to see Mrs. Tay who was in Science already. It was like, whoever else in the class, crowded over. Juliet, Xian Hui, Terese... et cetra.

As we were telling Mrs. Tay, I could hear Juliet telling them what happened and some of the worst ones. It was really scary, just to hear it. Mrs. Tay asked for the address and I gave it to her. Then after we left, Xian Hui was telling me to ignore those messages and all, really nice of her. I saw the look on Terese's face. It's as if she knew it was them who did it but didn't want to say.

Cyber was nice. It was like, I was talking to Char there. Telling her about what happened and how I had to quickly make sure I didn't say anything bad about the teachers. Then Cher came in and was asking me whether I was okay. Nice girl. Char was tagging, telling those people not to flame me and that she was the one who created it. But I had to go in to tag-board and remove some of the tags by my friends... then went down to talk to the sec 1s with Char and Yun Lin. Cher came along later.

Cher went down for air rifle later. She needed the points but I didn't go, although I have extremely few too. Eddy went home early. Yupz, that's about it. Cyber people are nice. We're doing literature for thinkquest. when khushboo found out I like lotr, we were like shaking hands, 'coz she's also a fan. hehez...

I chose to flee from my past at 06:55 p.m..

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

Guess what? Yesterday, Nivi borrowed my scissors twice. The second time I was reluctant, and she was like pleading. Today, I realised she hadn't return and she told me it was with Ambihaa who said it wasn't with her. and referred me to another. It all boiled down to the fact that the people doing the Earth day proj. yesterday lost my scissors. I was seething with rage. I told Nutti and Nithya that if they couldn't find it, the class funds would have to pay for my scissors. I said that so many times that they got irriated. they offered to buy one for me.

The pops are out of hand. Not that this is the first time. During English, they made Ms. Tan turn on thew air-con and she was taking the risk of being fired, she said so. Then during History, when Genevieve Ding allowed us to crossfire about whether the atomic bombs should have been dropped on Japan or not, they were practically screaming! I can't stand them. I only like a few of the pops anyway. The rest are all so well... paikia. Anyway, most of the pops walk with their feet wider apart than the civilised people do.

Ms. Ding is back to wearing her "bathrobe" and she wore something which she shouldn't wear in sch underneath. Nutti and I were like shocked. After that, Nivi got my scissors from E2-06. She said "see you didn't check. it was there." Like I wasn't angry enough. I was feeling extremely cold too. I said "I haven't even stepped out of History." I proceeded to announce to all those left in the History class room that the people making the Earth day thing are "irresponsible, ungrateful and immoral." They took my scissors and neither said thank you or sorry.

Sandi Kum was kind of docile today. I wonder what happened to her. Anyway, she caught Yi Jing and co. studying for HCL spelling. so she said "Benkyou o shimaska? iie." lolz! It's like my jap is bad but I understand it when I have to. Then she said, "Bored ah? Do this. See how well you can do it. You have fifteen minutes." Then she gave Yi Jing, Yilin and Vanessa a w/s. I think it's a spring test the other class got.

Kristel or Elisa asked if she learnt jap and then Sandi Kum didn't listen clearly and said "you're also bored ah?" she was reaching for the w/s when Elisa said "no, she asked if you learnt jap". Then ms. Kum was like "oh.. choto". hehez..

HCL: as it hath done so lately, this class hath turned into a joke. Huang lao shi was very funny. her ting1 xie3 wasn't like ting1 xie3 at all. We found it really easy. much easier than usual though I did badly. she gave us like 2-5 words instead of a sentence or phrase. but she gave us 20 questions, instead of 10. but still... really nice. then she was asking us "tong2 xie2 (yes, xie2) men2, zhe4 shi4 ni3 men2 di4 ji3 ci4 ting1 xie3?" I said "di4 yi1 ci4" when everyone else said "di4 san1 ci4" why? because she made it sound like we're in pri. 1. acted as if this is our first ting1 xie3.

her pronounciation is very funny and sometimes difficult to understand. some people made fun of it. and yesterday she said "ni3 men2 hen3 an1 jing4. qian2 ji3 ban1, dou1 hen3 cao3." we were quiet because Kenneth Tan made us run so much!

yesterday, I figured how to burn an audio cd. yay! There's Cyber tmr!

I chose to flee from my past at 02:33 p.m..

Tuesday, April 22, 2003

It was during recess today that I met Didi for the second time. And she called me a leech because I keep trailing her. yea, right... anyway... I was looking for her because of the debate thing... Didi admitted that her motto in life was to make people "laugh their heads off". she's been calling herself an alien and when she pulled out the debate thing, I had a good look at it and I pointed out to her that she isn't the only alien on earth.

the debate vice-chair, has an e-mail that is something like martians_4_ever@hotmail.com or whatever. hehez... funny. I was telling Didi that we could spam them. lolz. then Sandra pointed out we didn't know the date it's on by asking Didi to tell her the day the CCA's on. lolz. so blur, eh? Didi was trying to make me her secretary. yea... I want that position! *rolls eyes upwards*

I neglected to mention that I borrowed two books from the library yesterday. The Sapphire Rose by David Eddings and The Elfstones of Shannara by Terry Brooks. Which reminds Minty that she keeps on seeing Daffy lately. I saw Daffy about 4-5 times today and took the same bus as her for awhile because I wanted to go by Raffles Town Club and 105 was packed.

back to the topic. so I heard from Nithya that debtae is usually on Thurs and that when there are competitions the people have to stay back everyday! *cringe* If it's really like that, I can't join because... I am too devoted to Cyber. yes, fullstop. I can't imagine myself quitting Cyber for any reason whatsoever. Cyber is too nice. So what if some people don't like me? I have enough good friends there. My clique there is kind of considered as my best friends now. So, if that's the case, I won't join debate.

Anyway... Cyber is so fun. I know all the sec2s and 3s by names, even if some of them don't know me. I know about half the sec 1s too. Which kind of says that I talk too much... but isn't that my life? It is danger to know the truth... zhe4 me4 duo1 ren2 bei4 sa2 de4 yuen2 yin1, qui4 shi4 wei4 le4 sha1 ren2 mia4 kou3. Cyber people are all very nice, k... except for you-know-which-clique. Don't feel like mentioning their names on my blog.

It's like... I'm getting amnesia. I've forgotten what I wanted to type... oh yea... it's that the Elfstones of Shannara is a beautiful back. I mean the contents. There's some fluff but fluff is necessary to lengthen the suspense. I'm biased. Terry Brooks is either my fave or 2nd fave author. No idea, now.

It was last week during ACE when Mrs. Tay asked me my ambition. K, I guess the only person who reads this blog and knows my ambitions happens to be Eva, if she has bothered to read this. Since I put it on a site which I gave her the address of.I told Mrs. Tay that I didn't know which is a supposed lie but I've got so many options. The funny thing is that I forgot that I wanted to join the Pariliament. So I was there remembering the first five and forgetting the 6th. I guess, this is a sign that means I;m not as interested in joining the Parliament. Or this could mean, I've been severely infected by Yee Ying's amnesia.

Ann is taking part in air rifle, the inter-house one. So fun! Last time during CCA orientation I was planning to join Softball, air-rifle or Cyber. But you know, Janaki's really convincing, so I joined Cyber and it's definitely not a mistake. Oh... Last Thurs, at the fifth time or so Daphne saw me, she realised I was wearing the Maths Challenge Club collar pin. And she was excitedly pointing it out to Chin Yee because they made the badge. I guess they wouldn't want to know what the sec 2s say about the badge, nvm... This proves that Daphne is high-strung.

I don't know if I have mentioned this before... but anyway... if I did, this proves how severe my amnesia is.

I chose to flee from my past at 06:34 p.m..

Tuesday, April 22, 2003

I like these colours more. So much nicer. And I like the anything but ordinary bit there too. Today, there were a lot of pple wearing stickers. I don't know why, althought people have tried to explain it to me. First block was geog and was ai scared when I figured I forgot to bring my h/w. I thought it wouldn't be used in class. Nutti told her and didn't get into trouble but I didn't dare to tell her. Anyway, I was sitting in the back and she didn't notice even though she circled our table a few times. She was so dreamy in sch. She's been like this, ever since she got engaged I think. Some say she's already married though.

Next block was PE. Kenneth Tan got us half-killed. Probably because he holds grudges. We beat him at chapteh last year and he couldn't believe it. We ran more than 1.9km after not exercising for about 5-6 weeks. We had to do 10 dips, push-ups and crunges. *cringe* so scary... I felt like I was going to faint all the way up to lit on the 4th floor. I saw Li Chen on the way up, not that she knows but she hasn't wrtten to me for a long time.

Lit was terrible! Ms. Chow gave us back our test and I just passed by a few marks. I hate that poem. The first moment I read it, I shut my mind to it and I was guaranteed a bad mark. Luckily we don't have to do corrections...

HCl was hilarious. That huang lao shi is very funny. Vanessa, yilin and I returned the CL book because we already had it. Vanessa put a piece of adhensive paper on it and wrote a lot of things, and she was so happy that she kua1 jiang3 Vanessa for a few minutes. Then she turned on mine. *sweat drop* she said, "zhe4 ge4 tong2 xie2 (yes, xie2), lin2 min3 ye3 bu2 chuo4. ba3 ming2 zi4, bian1 hao4 he2 ban1 ji2 xie3 le4 xia4 lai2." and I was like so embarrassed. Then she went on to talk about how yilin neglected to write her name. Guo Tong proceeded to call her lame.

she made us read out the chen2 yu3. oh, we didn't have the chen2 yu3 test today, we weren't even supposed to have one, we had ting1 li4. denise wanted to revise for it. hehez... anyway, she started talking about the history and all of zhen1 jiu3 just because she came across the word zhi4. and I was thinking "I didn't know I signed up for medical history." it was kind of funny. when we did the ting1 li4, she acted as if we are Pr.1s who have never taked ting1 li4 before... hehez... she said "wo3 hui4 song4 ni3 ling2 fen1?" and Terese made a joke out of it. I said "ke2 yi3 ju4 hue2 ma1?" lolz.

we were thinking we had nothing to do for ACE again and were we wrong. we had this earth day thingy.. nutti bought a book with the wordsa "save the earth" on it and was talking about buying an environmentally friendly notebook on earth day.

lunch was well usual. except we all went down late because we had things to do. I saw that Eva and her friend were wearing 3 stickers. and then Nutti said she had seen somebody with 4. funny... PPL was boring as usual and Juliet and I were in no mood to do analysis. We were going to faint because of Kenneth Tan who's so vengeful... Kristel said that we should hope that Michelle Wong would stay in love so we will get a good year of geog. something along those lines. Juliet went on to elaborate about it...

I've to support a lot of events this year and I'm not allowed to go for Jog-a-thon because of the class thing. so angry. and there's so much h/w. bye!

I chose to flee from my past at 05:09 p.m..

Monday, April 21, 2003

During recess, I practially met Daffy about 3-4 times. Met her on the way to library and actually she also went to the library and met her again another 2 times I think around the canteen. Funny, eh? That Nutti is even more negative than me. My father was telling me not to be so negative this morning and I was thinking "I love being negative. At least it stops me from being as careless as my ridiculous sister". My sister was saying that it's because I'm negative that's why I always see the bad side of people and accuse their good side of being bad.

yea, indeed. I love using sarcasm on that gullible girl. Anyway... Nutti's mood is like perpetually depressed. I was going "it's not the Great Depression, Nutti. Don't look so depressed all the time." Before that I was telling her to stop looking depressed because she looks nicer when she's happy. Smiling like the Nutter she is. Even if she reads this, she wouldn't scream at me. Which is good.

Oh! Nearly forgot. I took a look at this book Nutti borrowed after visiting the library, it was They Do it with Mirrors. It looked interesting reading the back but I'll bet that out of 200+ pages, it's got over 125 pages of fluff. hehez... meaning in other words, things to lengthen a story. which means, I'm not reading agatha christie unless I feel very bored or something... how can anyone read her books without putting it down at least once? I can't do that with JKR, Terry Brooks, David Eddings or AC Doyle.

Who can say that JRR Tolkien and CS Lewis don't have a lot of fluff in their books? Philip Pullman's style is like kind of unique. Why am I wasting so much time typing away here when I have HCL chen2 yu3 to study? Anyway... I like aeshetics now. for project I get to create an audio CD. my father doesn't know, so I guess I'll have to call Nutti and get her to teach me. I love music. Dance was nice! We kind of finished Jive. Amy and Ruby weren't there, maybe they are VERY scared of SARS... hehez...

My images sill aren't showing up. I finally understand the basics of msg plus, with Lorraine's help. I met Manori in the bookshop today and I was telling her about what I put on my site under Hui Xing. "wisely quitted art club last year". hehez... she was a little upset. she's art club too, anyway. zijia kindly gave me the site to thinkquest. Wonder whether they'll agree to do something on lit or astrology. lolz..

I'm like listening to music and typing at the same time. also thinking about the chinese chen yu. multi-tasking. *grinz* I'm fed up with Brinkster! I'm going to use angelfire or geocities. So upset that boomspeed doesn't offer free acounts any more. say, I visited this site searching for what metal music is for aesthetics. And guess what I saw? I saw this bit of crap about banning Christianity! qi2 you3 ci2 li3. outrageous! how can they be so bad. they should never discriminate against any religion. And gentle reminder *lets geog and HCL h/w fall on reader's head*, I'm Christian!

One that doesn't go to church is more accurate. but hopes to. better get to work after I modify my blog's code again. Yay! Di gave me the debate topics. Did I mention I intend to go for debate auditions? Cher might be coming with Di and I. The topics are 1) ban boybands. hehez... will Nutti and Didi be upset... 2) reliaty TV goes to far ...will Cher be stricken. she loves survivor, I think, and definitely american idol. now there's this CL one. 3) support war on Iraq... yes, I love to talk about revolutions but I don't support wars in real life. 4) convicted terrorists shouold be given death sentence. yea! but I'm an extremist too.. hehez... 5) gay couples should be allowed to adopt children *cringes* did I hear wrongly?

This colour is a little bright. I need something darker... maybe dark blue? Have to fix in my zonkboard which contains colours that are also too bright. Now Can You Hear the People Sing is playing and I love the song. because Cher and I want to launch French Rev. v.2 if FooLing refuses to acknowledge our efforts for Cyberfair. Go Cyber!

I chose to flee from my past at 08:10 p.m..

Monday, April 21, 2003

Stricken. Stricken because my sister prefers her friends instead of her sister. Her family. Her entire family. She's a traitor. She likes her friends like they are gold and treats her family worse than dirt. The way one treats a spare tyre. I'm so stricken. I valued her above all else. The world will never realise how much I've sarcrificed for her...

Deep where the past wanders...

Tell me, would you do wish to have her for your sister... I love her beyond words. She's my kin and I value that term. I sacrificed so much. She had this loony classmate from Pri 1-3. Her name was Goh Jia Ying. Her sister who's two years older than me, for no apparent reason, grabbed my sister one day and slammed her against the war. That Jia Ying's sister was quite short but she's by far much taller than my sister. She used a water bottle to hit my sis on the head. The next day, I went to confront her and guess what the idiot said? She said she didn't do anything. I decided to let it pass...

Guess what next? Two of my classmates, Christine and Hui Ling insulted my sister. To know what I did next, is what one will know not. I tell not. but it was something serious enough for my parents to get a phone call from Simmy. That's the much hated principal of OLGC. What I did was not that bad anyway. Just that that Hui Ling had been trying to find trouble with me, anyway. Then, there was that Priscilla Chua. She's the most badly behaving pupil in my class. OLGC is a sch filled with terrible students with bad results. Mainly anyway. Sandra aand I are the only ones from there that made it to RG.

That Priscilla tried to steal my sis from me. Pretending to be all honey and sweet. So I tried to drag my sis off, and she screamed at me, then burst into tears. I got so angry, I went to see pan lao shi. I never liked pan lao shi too much but she said that I should tell my sis that Priscilla is bad. Like it would help. How would I know my miserable sis went to complain to her yang lao shi. That idiot yang lao shi is a person filled with physical and verbal irony. She scolded me until I cried, k? And I was only 8. My birthday is in August.

When I transfered my sch in Pr.4, my sis was like wild. She was always secretly staging rebellions in class, though I didn't know. Then when she was Pr.4, she decided to come to Rosyth. She was like guai guai like that. I thought she was really good, till my contacts in her class told me she was threatening to fight with boys everyday, and she made them suffer a lot. I told her to stop wasting her time and she didn't listen, k. This makes me feel so sad and melancholy fills my soul. Anyway, she got first position. I don't know how. Oh yar! Now I remember, she was a transfered student, so they put her in the worst class... yupz. that's it. not like me. I was supp. That's why I like GEPs.

Her life was kind of lost in Pr.4 anyway. Who asked her to befriend that idiot Ho Sian Ying. That Ho Sian Ying always argued with me when I met her and best of all, my sis supported her all the time. So angry. I wish I had a sister with more sense. Mine is gullible and all. That Ho Sian Ying was that sort of even wilder person. Can't even act civilised and my mother didn't like her either and not that my sis cares. So When I came to RG last year, my sister virtually lost her head.

She made friends with Ying Ching. Ying Ching! I know her family for about 11 years already. Her sister and I had a major argument in Pr.5, before that we were very good friends. Ying Ching is very rough, violent and what else can I use to describe her? She's not stupid. She's quite smart but I bested her sister in PSLE and I want my sis to best her as well. Anyway, forget that Ying Ching who has devoted her life to distracting my sister in sch.

Now, ther is this Goh Wanli who does the same. She called at 11pm last night. 11! An un-godly hour. I was so angry. I kept making all sorts of sarcastic remarks and my parents weren't too pleased. I am so angry with Goh Wanli. Oh btw, I don't really fancy most of the people whose surname is Goh. The only one whom I have a good impression of is Jenny Goh. The prefect who adopted me seven years ago. I don't even know where she is now... haven't seen her for about 5 years...

anyway, I was planning to sleep at 11:20pm. thanks to Goh Wanli, I slept at 12:30am. Got a lecture. My sister got an even longer one. teaches her to befriend people of that sort. That Goh Wanli always acts pathetic... yea, real pathetic.

...Memories blur, reality surfaces from where the past lies...

I chose to flee from my past at 03:33 p.m..

Sunday, April 20, 2003

I've been fixing the html code of this page. We had 2 netherland dwarf babies each about 10 days old. Navy died yesterday, we don't know why. I was looking in on them, when I noticed that Navy was behaving the way Lash, Dash, Brew and the rest of them did before they died. Navy was fighitng for over 2 hours, I don't care to know the exact time. It's not like there could be food poisoning and Ruff said White Star didn't kick. I don't know...

It's hard to believe it but today's supposed to be some sort of cheery day because Jesus rose from the dead this day, centuries ago. Digesting that is a little hard sometimes, although I've become more and more religious lately. I still don't go to church weekly, though I hope to correct that soon. It's just that there is so much h/w...

I'm using brinkster as my host but there's so much trouble uploading images here. I can view them but I'm not sure if other people can view them. I'm going to add in a zonkboard when I find the time. Comparing my links, the difference in numbers between my friends and Char's number of friends is like so obvious. Meaning I've very few friends but my friends are nice. I just realised I haven't linked a few people. I guess I'll go and modify the code. And the words below. I didn't want what I put at first to show. So I'll think of something and fix it there.

I want to reach for the stars, not the moon. The moon reflects light from the sun, it's like bu4 lao2 er2 gong1. I did so badly for the HCL test. I can't believe I did so badly, it's so wrong. It's like a severe sin. To me, it's a sin to do badly in tests but my HCL is atrocious. I guess the worst in the class. I feel so guilty, it's just too bad...

God had blessed my life alot. He's given me a lot of chances. I can tell. My life would be perfect if I had lesser opinions, but again my opinions will guide me through my life. My mother didn't stress much on her opinions so much in the past, and look where that has led her? If my opinions lead me right, I'll get what I want... What I hope... What I desire...

I chose to flee from my past at 12:36 p.m..

Friday, April 18, 2003

Good indeed. A rabbit died. It's name was Elixir. I can't accept it. I can't believe this. I wish I had someone to talk to. I can't believe... I need to talk...

I chose to flee from my past at 08:08 p.m..

Thursday, April 17, 2003

Life was so traumatizing today. I woke up so early and slept past 1 last night, thanks to Michelle Wong. All through my work, I was thinking "I officially hate Michelle Wong" because we had a Science test today and I only studied it for about 15 mins last night. Scary. All through Maths I was so scared because of speech and drama and Geography.

I crapped on the last page for the population pyramids and I did not do the DMT thing. So I was thinking Michelle Wong would blow up. Turns out she's blissfully happy today. Eddy, Marj and Siying said that she got married during the SARS school closure. Maybe that has something to do with her happiness...

During recess, Didi came by and told Nutti and I to draw the straws first. We drew somewhere around the middle, and before that Nutti said "LOL can also stand for lots of luck", hehez. She drew 15 and I got 18. A bit too far back, I wanted something around 14. Lolz. So we didn't have to present today. Ming Rue seemed kind of nercous, she was after all first to present. Then because Ambihaa wasn't around Felicia had to present. How does she act so calm? Jo was really nervous, she laughed nervously, I do that when I'm really nervous too. Her talk was quite good. Xiang Ying's talk just depicted for me a better image of her life. Not that I don't dislike her enough. Her topic was "teenage idolism" and she said that "without teenage idolism, there is no teenage hood" which is totally wrong!

I don't admire pop stars or movie stars. I love books, authors are great and I admire the best ones. But I do not idolise them . I am Christian, and I hate the word idol right down to the centre of my heart. I don't waste my money buying every single version of Shannara, Belgariad, Malloreon, Redemption of Althalus, Sherlock Holme's adventures, Chronicles of Narnia, His Dark Materials. I don't buy every different box set of Lord of the Rings or Harry Potter! I'm sane! She isn't. She can spend "$500 in 5 days" and "chase them all the way to 1-2 am in the morning and had to wake up at 5.30am. And during the time when there were tests". Interesting lifestyle eh? *drops rock on reader's head* Gentle reminder, I am a member of the Sarcatic Society. Sarcasm plays a great role in my life.

Nutti and I were gaping at each other, couldn't believe someone was so insane and obsessed. Nutti's obsessed with some people, but only a little. I'm not at all! I honestly want to question her sanity, every time I say something to her, even to say something good about her, she'll glare at me, as if I just cursed her or something. Not that I curse. And I'm leading my teenage life as I want it. Jing Xuan's speech was quite interesting, but she was not enthusiastic at all. I'm still angry with her. I can't understand why she's like that. She was very nice to me early last year. Xian Hui's speech was definitely the best. She seemed so confident.

Nutti recited her speech to me about 5 times today and it's really windy, though really wonderful. She got her father to help her... Joanna had to agree with me, she kept saying "I see what you mean". Hehez, so funny.

HCL teacher ruined my day! Thursday is the most beautiful, of the week and she had to return our tests and I flunked it. I got so low... Lunch was hectic. I rushed through lunch than Vani and I went up to encounter. Where Nivi, Nutti and Nithya all were "doing work", really checking e-mail. In the end, I had to photocy Nutti's demographic whatever and planned to tell Michelle Wong we discussed it over msn. Reason I am seething with angry at Michelle Wong, is that she didn't collect anything!

Cyber was kind of back to normal, which I like. Char was doing some rpg and Yun Lin was getting Pei Jie to teach her flash. Then Cher and I kept trying to steal PJ over to get her to teach us, or rather Cher, how to do pop-ups. I want to know too. hehez... then when I finally got Yun Lin to come down with me to ask Daphne for help with flash, we went down for such a short time! Daphne told us to go up to do perr marking, than we were there doing nothing. Finally, Cher and I got fed-up and decided to go down. Then we did whatever we wanted. I don't know what she did but I know I was talking to the sec 1s. Daffy and Lorraine mostly. Because Sharan wasn't here today. Apparently, two of them have caught YY's amnesia. And Daffy was telling me how she knew YY was her angel. All sounded like ridiculous blunders.

Janaki was helpng me to get glue out of my floppies. They got glue into them because my glue bottle leaked and my calculator was in a worst shape. After Cyber, Cher and I went down to class trays and we read through my letter from Eva. She sent it 3 days late, must have caught amnesia from Joanna Phay. I think Eva knows who I am already. After 2/7 has HCl, 1/7 has theirs. Then I didn't realise it but when I started talking to YY, Eva was right behind her. Best of all, I was saying something like, "YY, we are counted for Cyber, right? I mean Cybrfair." something along those lines. I am so ridiculous... But being in Cyber just makes me feel great!

I chose to flee from my past at 07:31 p.m..

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

I've decided to move here. I'm not going back to diaryland for a long time... Now I'll have to make a template for myself, after I've finished with the blogspot one for Hui Xing and the LOTR one for Didi. Luckily my comp is sane now. It crashed on Monday and last night, my father and I fixed it. So back to gloating at my friends. Did I mention that my mouse is so cool? It has a picture from Age of Mythology and the font is really nice. The mouse is a sensor, so no more irritating ball.

The school mouse drove me crazy today. Xian Hui wasn't very happy either. I got so angry with the mouse, because it kept getting jammed. So I shoke it very hard and the ball and that thing that stops it from escaping, fell apart. Hehez... I guess they think I'm crazy. We learnt the ulet thing today. I got most of it, I wasn't really paying attention for once. I felt so free without Madam Lim. Everytime before comp. studies, my clique will wish she has gone for maternity leave. Now she finally has! Yay! I forgot the new teacher's name. Mdm. Lim sholdn't be back for about 3-4 months. The new teacher was almost encouraging us to use msn. Anyway, there are always the hand-outs to look to if we forget anything.

I had to go up and help with the presentation for History today and I didn't freak out! So happy. My group is supposed to pretend to be the Malay Community during the Maria Hertogh riots. Elisa suggested murdering Mr. and Mrs. Hertogh. Hehez... so funny. Neeti was looking at me, as if she thought I was the one who suggested it. I'm not that bloodthirsty any more. I was last year, but I've changed a lot since last year, and I love it.

During recess, I saw Halsall and he told me I had written my spd speech wrongly. So now I have to re-do it. Like I have insufficient homework. Didi said she's coming with me for debate suditions. Yay! She's so nice. I'd hate to go alone. I wonder when the debate thing really starts. During lit we were made to present. We didn't have half our materials. And we went first! Funniest thing is I didn't freak out at all. I was a little nervous but my voice didn't waver and all, during English also didn't. I could talk normally. Ann's group did CHIJMES also. When CHIJMES is ours and we were the first to tell Chelsea we were doing CHIJMES. SO, they were looking a bit uncomfortable. Did I mention I'm quite angry with Jing Xuan today. She and her clique are so biased against me.

Then that Ms. Chow, ask for our poems. We forgot to print a lot of things, including our poem and we are submitting our project tmr, instead of today. All because we forgot to print. I'm supposed to do the photo journal later, among others... She said she wanted my poem and called it really short and sweet, something along those lines. I portrayed CHIJMES as a person, I forgot what that's called though the rest of the class knows. And my friends were saying, it was quite good. Flattery. SO now, I'm down to suffer from homework. List: Geog population graph, Lit photo journal, Maths assignment (done long time ago but best to check), study for tmr's Science test and possible Chinese spelling no. 3.

Wish me luck. God has been helping me a lot lately...

I chose to flee from my past at 02:49 p.m..